❤️🩹Sometimes, I have to lay still in the same position, without lifting my arms or shoulders, for hours at a time to relieve the pain from my disability.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I randomly try to sneak into the bathroom, when I’m in a public place, just to catch my breath from how much anxiety I have of everyone STARING.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I tell my family that I’m doing so well, even when I’m broken in 1 million pieces, because it’s my light that keeps their energy moving and it would stress them to the core if they knew how I was really feeling.
❤️🩹Sometimes, when I fall in public … it hurts so bad but after it happens; I nervously apologize to everyone around me like it was my fault so that nobody will get up from what they were doing.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I pretend that I don’t know what people are saying about me because I can’t handle their misunderstanding.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I laugh at the cyber bully comments because I Make myself believe it’s an internal issue for them and nothing to do with me.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I block and then unblock people because even though their words cut like knives, I still want them to see me succeed.
❤️🩹Sometimes, I have to give people “teachable” moments because they don’t know what to do or how to act around a disabled person. It’s 2022, you don’t know how to be a human being? And why I get to be the lucky person to teach today?
❤️🩹Sometimes, I wonder if systems are built the way that they are so that people like me, who are the most vulnerable, will die sooner so that we don’t have to use government programs $$$$$
❤️🩹Sometimes, I forget that I’m disabled until I’m reminded again The moment that I step outside my perch 👑 Photo: @blondie_rg
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