I’ve Never Experienced Pain Like This

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( REPOST ) I’ve never experienced pain like this

🌀I’ve never been this exhausted to the point where I couldn’t open my eyes. stress!

🌀 i’ve never been beaten so bad that my body won’t take CBD or any topical’s to soothe the pain.

🌀 i’ve never stopped off the side of the highway so much only to cry for 20 minutes.

🌀 i’ve never prayed so hard in my life asking for guidance

🌀 i’ve been battling claims with the government, writing letters to my caseworkers, facilitating doctors appointments and research on my disease…. only to continue running in circles.

Around and around, going nowhere

I keep looking at my sand dial wondering if time is an illusion.

November is right around the corner yet I’m still going through policies that happened more 18 months ago.

Each week, the agents come back with another hurdle. Something more complicated this time. Not going to throw any agencies under the bus but the problem is systematic by the government. I feel like a criminal because of my disability. I can’t have basic human rights for insurance because of pre-existing conditions. And because I operate my own businesses, I am penalized for being a successful entrepreneur with a disability.

Wouldnt life be easier if I gavd up now?
Do you think life will be more simple in my next life?

I guess this shows with my beliefs are, ❤️i must live in my best life now so i can have a better life IN the next one.

I am meeting strangers whom become friends, they shared how incredibly inspiring my story is.

What they don’t realize, as all of the things I’m going through behind closed doors to hold myself together. These short acquaintances, I should call them gems 💎 , make me feel like all of the pain is worth it. If I can change one persons life in less than 60 seconds, all of the bad energy and pain no longer exists

By the end of the day, I’m im lost in physical and mental abuse. I remind myself that there are more people who have life obstacles worse than me. I stick in the back of my head that I must go through with it, plow through whatever this obstacle is so that I can get out on the other side with more strength than I thought it would be possible.

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I’ve never experienced pain like this 🌀I’ve never been this exhausted to the point where I couldn’t open my eyes. stress! 🌀 i’ve never been beaten so bad that my body won’t take CBD or any topical’s to soothe the pain. 🌀 i’ve never stopped off the side of the highway so much only to cry for 20 minutes. 🌀 i’ve never prayed so hard in my life asking for guidance 🌀 i’ve been battling claims with the government, writing letters to my caseworkers, facilitating doctors appointments and research on my disease…. only to continue running in circles. Around and around, going nowhere I keep looking at my sand dial wondering if time is an illusion. November is right around the corner yet I’m still going through policies that happened more 18 months ago. Each week, the agents come back with another hurdle. Something more complicated this time. Not going to throw any agencies under the bus but the problem is systematic by the government. I feel like a criminal because of my disability. I can’t have basic human rights for insurance because of pre-existing conditions. And because I operate my own businesses, I am penalized for being a successful entrepreneur with a disability. Wouldnt life be easier if I gavd up now? Do you think life will be more simple in my next life? I guess this shows with my beliefs are, ❤️i must live in my best life now so i can have a better life IN the next one. I am meeting strangers whom become friends, they shared how incredibly inspiring my story is. What they don’t realize, as all of the things I’m going through behind closed doors to hold myself together. These short acquaintances, I should call them gems 💎 , make me feel like all of the pain is worth it. If I can change one persons life in less than 60 seconds, all of the bad energy and pain no longer exists By the end of the day, I’m im lost in physical and mental abuse. I remind myself that there are more people who have life obstacles worse than me. I stick in the back of my head that I must go through with it, plow through whatever this obstacle is so that I can get out on the other side with more strength than I thought it would be possible. #lifeofmissydi

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