I ask myself every morning “Why even try.. wake up and do the thing..”
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Just to repeat it all over again the next day… and the next day.. and the next? Terrible to feel that Im repeating the same day over & over without gaining some value. 😟😟😟💧I miss the days of enjoying other people’s presence to share thoughts & growing from learning with story sharing. My business is my business; and your business is yours. However; I cant help to think that everyone has similar feelings of loss without gain.
Unfortunately; and unforgivably (is a word?) there is a lot of heavy that comes across my day.. because of the person that I am responsible to be. My mission; that I accepted from God. My golden bubble can only do so much…. My angels can only block so much. There’s a lot of bad spirits round these parts these days.. bad attitudes and bad motions. Why be envious when you can be chill? Cuidate.
Sometimes I let them win; because I enjoy fighting + talking shit. I get off too it. “Line em up.“ That’s how I roll out – that one person is gonna get the crazy that’s been building all day. Pew Pew, it’s something that I look forward to; disgusting, right? Im learning to stop bringing down.. when I can rise up.. be the leader that you / him / her / they / need.
This wonderful soul fell into my world tonight; as if I was calling for his presence/// Austin was sharing with me tonight. “For without the pain; we cannot realize how much we need ourselves to heal.” He lifted me up… so high telling me that Im this beautiful beacon of hope for our world.
Now I cant be upset that Ive had long days.. because its people like him that balances the magic.. which is quite rare for a connection that now changed my mindset.
Im doing OK, considering. How to keep breathing when I feel like people are holding me down .. and all the sweetness is fading – ill continue rising up to shine on em; as I am dancing circles around them, too. Dont replace my kindness for weakness; im always going to pull a card on em. #DetroitsFinest
Keep Breathing, Love. ✊🏻💓❣️
