Cheers 🥂 to life being better in color!
Repost: for anyone who needed it… ‘do it for yourself; the right people will follow’ #realtalk
Sometimes self love comes from decisions made by old wounds.. attempting to fit in to something or someone that isnt like you; so you feel loved. I can look back at all my past mistakes and wonder what the F was i even thinking… Its me against the world; and it always has been. 💎 why jeopardize my freedom?
Give yourself the respect & love that you deserve ; can be difficult if it’s the first time… but hear me out. Having enough self respect to tell people to politely be aware of your boundaries is enough to realize you’re growing – i cant wake up making other people’s dreams come before mine; that life is over. Ive never heard the voices in my head so loudly until now. What happened to me? I was losing myself in the trap.. its a cycle. Trauma in Detroit.. my alternative life in South America.. diving into a million opportunities in Miami. All of it.
Its only when you hit rock bottom; that you learn whose there for you.
I appreciated being so low this week, the guilt.. the pain… the weaknesses that i felt. I was in control of my feelings. After being careless for a week.. on my face with sickness && no energy from the on going battles of my case workers in the States.. im gonna say ‘cheers’ because damn, isnt a boss bitch if i didnt ever see one?
I did it all.. i stood strong, and didnt let my emotions win. I called my family as i was in trouble, consulted with legal aid, went back to my advocates… yes, my mind is in 1,000,000 places… but it’s only recently that an old friend reminded me of how much of a weapon i am.. doing more than most around me.
That was all the shake i needed to say, im doing my best.. im doing what i can & if that’s not good enough.. cheers 🥂 cus you out of my life