If I fall, will you pull me up? 🥹🙏
“Is it true that you can still relive the same moment over and over as if you’re stuck in it.”
I am back in the moment.. reliving the dark ocean surrounding me, the water that took over my lungs and nose. Being thrown from a boat, and no time to react other than frustration from moments before when we asked the driver to slow down.
I can’t stop imagining the fear, when my ankle broke.. when the cushion flew off into the ocean,
the cushion that later saved our lives. My moms and sister pulling me up from above, it wasn’t my time to go. I was dragging deeper in the water by force of the ocean and I kept looking for a light .. I held both arms up, trying so hard not to drown. The fear in my eyes as the waves were moving faster and faster… being drifted away from the boat so quickly. I was floating away into the ocean with nothing stopping me. I keep reliving this moment as if it were the end .. I made a huge mistake and didn’t trust my instincts. After being told many times by the authorities to stop messing around at the event in Tampa, I held myself accountable by staying on the edge when I should have hopped off and took a ride home. I knew something was off, especially with the carelessness of not paying attention when water taxi were coming and being in restricted zones warned by authorities .. small things that led to bigger problems of reckless driving. I can still feel the coldness of the water and the pain of my broken foot that swelled larger than a basketball. Being lifted into a boat by strangers who became my saviors .. I can’t help to imagine if they didn’t stop to save us.
What seemed like eternity for the authorities to rescue us. Helicopter, boats and rescue teams were in route. I could hardly lift my head from my legs.. I was so cold.
I kept thinking of the unimaginable things that should have happened but the miracle moment that saved us.
I’m so sorry to have put myself in that situation. I’m so sorry for the others who have injuries from it. God was good to us and I’ll never forget that. 🥹❤️🩹 I almost lost it all and my soul hurts from it.
Photo: Ann
